Poetry & Ponderings with Julia Fehrenbacher

Poetry & Ponderings with Julia Fehrenbacher

One Stubborn Layer at a Time

A poem

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Julia Fehrenbacher
Nov 18, 2024
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One Stubborn Layer at a Time

Peace finds me today, meets me 
in the clear waters of poets' words,
in the distant call of mourning dove, 
in the bursting buds of the old mossy oak. Even 

the black fly is an almost-welcome visitor, 
its relentless buzz challenging me to meet it again
and again. It flies up close to my open eyes
and asks—even this? 

The young men painting the house next door 
play their festive music and sing and sing, 
they sing as if not a thing in the world hurts, 
as if this singing moment is guaranteed.

Or maybe they sing because 
there is so much hurt 
in the world and none 
of it is guaranteed.

I love how, for once, I feel no need to justify
this not-doing, afternoon spent cradled 
in hammock's kind lap, pen and notebook close 
for when words decide to come—

and when they do, I catch one 
at a time, like a child catching snowflakes 
on her tongue. I say thank you 
for each one—

for what else but words point me back,
show me how to, one stubborn layer 
at a time, undress myself—how to dive naked 
into the clear waters of what is here.

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